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All of this are totally bullshit.Why should i care about my brother?Not once not twice but countless of times i've treated him and what the hell he gives me in return?It's already been a year now the computer is my possession MY ONLY SOURCE OF INFORMATION AND MY ONLY WAY TO INTERACT WITH OTHERS.He got seriously obsessed with online games like MAPLE A RETARDED 2D GAME(YES I PLAYED IT BEFORE TOO I AM RETARDED TOO).He just bosses around the computer THE WHOLE DAY FREAKING DAY MORNING TO NIGHT IF I DONT GET IT.AND WHAT I DO?JUST SITTING THERE LOOKING AT HIM MONITORING THE COMPUTER?THIS IS TOTALLY STUPID.AND RECENTLY I'VE JUST TOOK HIS SIT AND I AM NOT IM A GOOD MOOD HE WAS BACK FOR HIS SIT AND HE JUST GAVE A STUPID BLACK FACE AND IDIOTICLY SAT ON ANOTHER SPOT AND EAT HIS DAMN FREAKING LUNCH.AND OH MY MY MOM,HERE COMES THE SUPERHERO TO THE RESCUE "JOHN, WHY DONT YOU TALK TO HIM IN A PROPER MANNER" IM LIKE WTF LA OK.SHE ADDED ON "YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO TREAT YOUR FRIENDS "NICE" WHILE YOU(I) TREAT MY PARENTS BAD" OK FIRST OF ALL CMONYOU NEVER GAVE ME A CHANCE YOU JUST GO AROUND JOHN DO THIS JOHN DO THAT WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE NOW?WE DONT DO ANYTHING THAT STRENGHTHENS OUR BOND WE NEVER GO ANYWHERE DURING HOLIDAYS WE NEVER TALK TOGETHER THINGS THAT FRIENDS USUALLY DO.OK YOU MIGHT HAVE WITH MY RETARDED LIL BRO THATS BECAUSE HE IS THE YOUNGEST.BUT DID YOU GAVE ME A CHANCE?ALL THE ATTENTION GIVEN TO MY YOUNGER BRO ALRIGHT THATS "REALLY REALLY FAIR" RIGHT NOW SINCE YOURE THE "MOTHER" YOU CAN ABUSE YOUR POWER.I DO REMEMBER MORAL TAUGH US SOMETHING ABOUT THE FREEDOM TO SPEAK OUT.AND THIS PROVES NOTHING,YOU NEVER LET ME VOICE OUT MY FEELINGS AND HOW WOULD YOU KNOW WHAT IM THINKING?"YOU SHOULD LOVE YOUR BROTHER UNCONDITIONALLY" YES I AGREE WITH THAT BUT THE SAD THING IS THAT WE BROTHERS NEVER DO ANYTHING TOGETHER ITS ALWAYS BEEN YOU HAVE YOUR LIFE I HAVE MINE SO DONT GET INTO MY LIFE.WE DONT DO FAMILY BONDING STUFFS LIKE SHOPPING TOGETHER I MEAN REAL SHOPPING NOT THOSE RETARDED GROCERY SHOPPINGS GOING OUT FOR LUNCH AND ALL THIS IS TOTALLY STUPID EVEN WHAT IM WRITING NOW IS TOTALLY STUPID.you want me to treat you the way i treat others normally?try treating me as a normal being for once you never did.I am very dissapointed in you my mother i've got nothing more to say.I am more ashame to be your son.To hear my father's side that they love their mom so much and how much they did for them.But when it comes to you i try to think of something nothing,N-O-T-H-I-N-G!pops up of my mind.And i wont delete this post.