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I have longed to yearn this,
Searching throughout my days,
Searching,
Venturing myself into a state of no return,
There is no space for regret now,
Trap in this eternal delusion.

A strong sense of narcissism,
There's always someone better,
yes,better,
I just have gone through this countless of times,
How people come and go for me,
It shows that,
Everything is a fact,
yes a fact,everything that you have said to me,
Records keep coming and and being broken every year,
What does that prove,
Everything come and in this world,
Nothing stays.

i've got to stand strong,
It may be sad,
But, everything can be solved... ,
Yes solved... by just... ,
A smile

I must thank you for the times you have been with me,
tears roll down on my cheeks as i think of it,
How i wish things in this world doesn't just,
Goes off my grasp like that.

Going back to normal

I guess things are going back to the way it was after a while now.Nothing much to say on my major exam is just around the corner around less than 3 weeks.I guess its time to gear up for the exams now.Nothing much to say here i sense future boredom.

Ciao

Things

Just a pic i took out of nowhere.Just feel like sharing it here lol.

Hmm exams hitted on my mind while doing this so why not just blog about it lol.

Well nothing much actually results very bad as usual 4A's 1B 2C's but im feeling pretty good bout it since its only the trials which most people say its hard =S i dont know but i'm more to excited to face PMR aint it weird?I just wish i could finish the damn exam and let my mind wander off to paradise!PMR's on 13th of oct which falls on a Monday WHICH is after Raya holidays its like sooo lame right gotta study during the holidays pfft!Well all the best i guess!The results are actually ALOT better than Midyear's results =S i dont know why everyone improved dramaticly in class.Cant wait for PMR =x.

Cassandra was here!

Ciao!

Mooncake fest!

Yeah its the mooncake fest!Celebrated it over at TC with Krissie,Addy muffy,Joel,Adryan and Loong.Went over there at 6 meet up with kris then we were like clueless no idea what are we here in the first place.Well, that never last for long kris called Ad on whatever she's doing over there at her side,padahal she told kris that shes coming at 5.30 but she turned up at 6.40 man Adlene YOUR TIMING IS SOOOO TEPAT!!!while waiting for her we went into McD chit chat there cuz the air-conds there.Chit chatted things nothing much to write on there, suddenly i saw a school guy of mine yup i hope he dosent go telling stupid stories of me on the next day lol.Ahhh finally Adlene arrived with her dashing white shirt which krissie forbidden her to wear uhhh the color white?Lol i sooo dont understand girls!They're even picky on colors of their shirts!Heh then we went over to Sampan at Hyatt its my first time over there i think im a sad boy lol still im soo lucky going there on my first time with 2 fine ladies xD.As soon as we reached there my minds blank on what to order well it IS my first time there!Kris recommended pina colada sweet!its nice!with the aroma and all im beginning to love cocktails lol.After that they were hungry so both of them went over to McD to buy our dinner.Ahh the view there was magnificent especially the night view it was a full moon on that night with the moonlight reflecting on the waters of the sea simply beautiful!Half an hour later Jo,Adryan and loong arrived i was kinda blur at first looking at them thinking WHO ARE THOSE FREAKS!But when i got a closer look yeah its them alright the one that i tihnk was a total stranger was Joel his hair style totally changed his original looks that i know lol.Then the girls came back with dissapointment that outside foods aren't allowed in there so we finish off our cocktails and went to McD to feast on our food.I saw more of my school guys then our president Pang and his fellow mates of his.We saw a large crowd later on and we went over to check it out,it looks like its a shuffle ground some sort then the girls went crazy over some guy over there lolx im sure they had a good time now seeing some hawt guys over there.The beach's view was awesome!Its the first time i've ever been to the beach during Mooncake/lantern festival its PACKED!with people and LANTERNS!!!its so bright on that night!Hmmm, Sai mai lou came into my mind after a while we went over to the shop that sells em Mok and pei stey followed as well with some other guys.Sadly when we were over there Sai mai lou was out of order =S so then we ordered some jelly thing lol with fruits in it its kinda okok saja la lol i really want to try out Sai Mai Lou when will i get to taste it!!!After the desserts over we went into the beach again this time we saw something lighted up and flew into the sky man its awesome looking it upclose for the first time.Then Adlene and Kris gotta go so they left first.Awww will miss you two!i wont be here if it were'nt for you guys!xoxo.Alright then theres like totally nothing to do now so its getting really bored adryan and i went back next.We waited at McD's drive through then Adryans dad called him to walk over to hyatt so thats farewell then i walked over the hill as the traffic jam was MASSIVE!So i think if my dad's gonna get through all of those im pretty sure he will be very mad the moment i get into the car lol.Well it all ended at 10 something.It's really an unforgetable moment for me!

Tagged

Tagged by Raney

1. What is the relationship of you and her?
=uhh uhh uhh an acquaintance from saint john

2. Your 5 impressions towards her.
= Nice girl?i guess =S
= Active in saint john?always see her during saint john things lol
= ~~~
= ~~~
= ~~~

3. The most memorable things she had done for you.
= The moment she tagged me here in blogspot.O.o?

4. The most memorable things she have said to you?
= IDK~~~

5. If she become your lover, you will...
= Will never happen Lol.

6. If she become your enemy, you will...
= Wonder around thinking the nutshell out of my head saying"what i did?"

7. If she become your lover, she has to improve on...
= why are you asking me this question that idont know how to answer!!!

8. If she become your enemy, the reason is...
= ~~~

9. The most desirable thing to do on her is?
= ~~~

10. The overall impression of her is...
= ~~~

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
= retarded.

12. The character of you for yourself is?
= Loves wasting time on games.Hey!its my life!

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
= i dont hate myself i love my lameness!!!it makes me for who i am.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
= A FAMOUS BLOGGER IN SINGAPORE!!!XIAXUE I LURB EUUU~~~

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
= Can't live without you.ESPECIALLY XIAXUE even though she doesn't know me =

Ten people to tag :
1. Mille
2. Marina
3. Hazel
4. Mei Chee
5. Alisson
6. Yong Lin
7. Rainier
8. Oh So Serene.KONON!!!
9. Krissie!
10. Melissa

Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
= Someone lol

Is no. 3 a male or a female?
= Female duh

If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing
= LOL they dont even know each other

How about no. 5 and 8?
= Whoah thats outta of their league

What is no. 1 studying about?
= Love novels and taiwan dramas she's studying about the handsome gay taiwan actors

Is no. 4 single?
= IMPOSSIBLE SURELY SHE HAVE LOADS OF EM AND THE SECRET ADMIERERS KEEP COMING IN!!!SHES HAWT PLEASE GO TO HER LINK FOR MORE PICTURES.

Say something about no. 6
= sister sister sister!

The Beast!

Hmm nothing much to post PMR trials are here.HECK WITH IT!!!its like im studying or anything i feel its just like any normal day odd ain't it?And its the puasa/fasting month for the muslims well good luck to those of my muslim friends out there lol.Hmm in this post i just wanted to post some snapshots of my beast.Yeah ma beast!!!













Wanna have a look......?





















don't regret you are bound to have nightmares after looking at its hideous face......





























no kidding....
























better go back now while its still not too late......















alright here he comes.....

















mama!!!

Ferocious aint it?Don'd judge a book by its cover.its a serial killer.

A Beauty in its sleep.Carefull though it might wake up anytime!

A Naturallie born model star!Useful to attract victims!and chomp them up!

A Wise dog by its position.Nice posing!But beware its just on its stance ready to leap onto its prey anytime.

See that yellow thing behind it?Yeah you got it its his victim alright.Scared now?

Chewing upon its prey.See its coated in YELLOW BLOOD!!! terrifying aint it?

Approaching its prey with such skills.Even an expert acrobatist cant follow its supperior act!

Look at its face...its filled with anger,hatred and its emotionless such a ruthless killer...

Just waiting for it to act.Just look at its ferocious jaws its capable to chomp anything up into dusts with that baby!!!

Victory over the yellow menace.A Toast to our lovely yet destructive beast here cheers!

WELL I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A NICE DAY NOW AND PLEASE BE VERY SCARED OF THE BEAST!!!IF YOU WANNA BE SAFE?THINK OF IT BEFORE YOU SLEEP I AM SURE YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO SLEEP WHILE THINKING OF IT!!!MWAHAHAHAHAHA

Tagged.once more

YOU WANT CRAP??!!!ILL SHOW YOU CRAP!!!
TAGGED BY OH SO SERENE(PUH-LEESE),MEI CHEE(THE BABI) AND MILLECHINO HER SO CALLED NEW NAME.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?-
WHAT THE HELL IMMA GAY I GOT NO LOVER EVERYONE ARE HAPPY PEOPLE FOR ME NO SUCH THINGS AS BETRAYAL HERE SORRY.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
HMMM MY DREAM EH.WELL MY DREAM IS TO OPEN KUANTAN'S VERY FIRST FISH SPA AND TO DATE XIAXUE LOLOLOLOL.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?-
USELESS IDIOTS WHICH HAVE NO BALLS TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD WHAT DO YOU HAVE THEN GOAT BALLS?

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?-
ITS GOING TO HELL BABEH!!!ALL GOIN DOWN TO HELL TONIGHT!!!I WANNA BUY XIAXUE @@!!!

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?-
WHAT THE HELL MAN LIKE I SAID EARLIER 5 MINS AGO IM ONLY ATTRACTED TO MAN.GAYS ARE HAPPY PEOPLE,PEOPLE!!!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?-
IM A LONER DON'T ASK ME WHAT I DO IS KEEP

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?-
HECK WITH IT!!IM NOT GOING TO WAIT FOR ANYONE MY COMPUTER'S WAITING FOR ME IT NEVER LEFT ME!!!MY COMPUTER IS MY TRUE LOVE!!!(though you did cause me aot of trouble sometimes which makes me VERY angry and start kicking the crap out of the computer)

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?-
STAB THE OTHER GUY IN THE ARSENAL!!!

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?-
YES MY COMPUTER I LURB EUUU 1314~!!!

10. What takes you down the fastest?-
A MOVE WHICH THE GIRLS INVENTED TO TAKE DOWN GUYS IN A SPLIT OF A SECOND WE CALL IT THE NUTCRACKER OR ALSO KNOWN AS THE SHADOW LEG NEWEST NAME BY MEI CHEE LIM AKA LIM MEI CHEE THE GREAT(KONON) WHICH REALLY WORKS!!!YOU SHOULD TAKE LESSONS FROM MEI CHEE ITS SELF DEFENCE TOWARDS UNCIVILISED MEN THAT CANT RESIST THE URGE.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?-
ALOHA TO THE COMPUTER!!!!MA BUTT'S STICK WITH IT.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?-
XIAXUE
XIAXUE
XIAXUE
XIAXUE
XIAXUE-MANIA!!!!!

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?-
THREE TAGGED ME!!!LETS GO THROUGH ONE BY ONE SHALL WE:-
FIRST OF ALL WE GOT MEI CHEE
-WELL EVERYTIME I CALL HER LENG LUI SHES LIKE YOUR HEAD LA LENG LUI AND A VERY BLUR CASE GIRL ALWAYS SAY "YOU AR!!!"BUT NO ACTION JUST TALK NO ACTION WHAT FOR!!!NATO!!!AND SHES THE PENGASAS FOR SHADOW LEG PLEASE CONTACT HER VIA MY BLOG LINK>>>FOR MORE INFO ABOUT SHADOW LEG.
SECOND BUT NOT FIRST OR LAST?SERENE!!!!
-HMMM SERENE NI LAME SKIT SENGET!!!BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE THE ONLY IPOH LENG LUI THAT I KNOW OF MWAHAHAHA NOT MUCH COMMENTS WELL ENJOY YOUR KARATE AND KICKING GUYS BALLS(REMEMBER YOU TOLD ME YOU DID!!)
LAST BUT NOT FIRST MILLECHINO THE BABEH
-USELESS GRAND DAUGHTER ONLY INTRESTED IN GIRLS I WONT HAVE ANY GREAT GRAND CHILDREN WHAT A SAD THING.ALWAYS BULLYING ME AS IM OLD.SHE THINKS SHE SO GREAT ALWAYS NEGLECTING ME HMPH

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?-
NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU~~~
MA COMPUTER!!!

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?-
TO SEE MY LOVED ONE MY COMPUTER!!!

16. Would you give all in a relationship?-
HIGH END HARDWARES FOR MY COMPUTER????ANYTIME!!!

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?-
I ONLY GOT ONE AND ONLY ONE!!AND IT WILL REMAIN ONE!!!THE COMPUTER!!!!11111


18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?-
KILL THE PERSON WITHOUT MERCY LAUGH LIKE A MANIAC AFTER KILLING HIM/HER.WHY SO SERIOUS???

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?-
I AM ALREADY AM WITH MY LOVER HERE COMPUTER!!!

i ask myself,

The friends surrounding me are they really true friends,
Is it really too much if i what i wished is only to have friends,
Have i been used or made played of.

I ask myself twice.
Is it all a mere coincidence that all of this happen to me,
Am i miserable,
Am i happy,
Whats the purpose of this petty life.

The poem i once wrote with was it meaningless?Was it written by all fake emotions and illusions?

I reside in the dark,
The glimpse of hope seem impossible beyond my grasp,
The eerie feeling surrounding the vast atmosphere,
Stranded on the entrance of babylons gate

I have sheath my will from my undying sorrow,
I have give it with all my heart to escape this sorrow,
Fate,it isn't always there when you wish for it,
Paradise,does it exist or its just a mere illusion in my eyes

Shadows appeared upon my sight,
You all gave me hope upon living on my dreadful days,
You have turned me over a new leaf,
Thou i shan't forget your deeds

Friends i cant live without you the times we spent together,
Tears rolled down to my cheeks reflecting the times we had,
Memories that i cherish,lives on and finally dies within the roots of this world,
My friends i wont forget all of you,
I'm glad that i meet you all may we be friends again in our next life

Whats this feeling im having right now.
Everytime i remember it and saying it out loud whats my wishes just submerges my eyes into a realm of sadness.How long will this last.I dont know maybe i'm ought to be like this as it happen countless of times regardless of time and place.

As the time passes,
It all rots away,
Relationship,memories,friendship,love,
Washes down the stream of water,
Leading to a world of eternal questioning,
The more i stuggle,
The more it pulls me down with its current,
To forgive i may,
To forget its impossible,
A mark left by a splinter cant be removed so can a memory,
Sweet memories will always be there,
So does the bitter memories even the ones which is always haunting us around,

I feel i have been wasting my life writing this total piece of crap.

Friends Forever

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Just give me some time.

desserted

I dont want to be deserted...